Brother, Can You Spare A Dime?

I’ve been in Seattle for the past week and its been lovely to be at my old stomping grounds.  I’ve been applying for jobs like a mad woman but there is just not a lot of work out there.  It can be a very frustrating process if you let it; so far, I’ve managed to maintain a pretty positive outlook.  It’s easier to stay positive when most of the jobs I’m applying for I don’t really want anyway.  Sure, some income would be nice, but I’m having a bit of an identity crisis and rethinking my career in social services.  I find the work satisfying and motivating but as anyone in social services knows the work can be draining, stressful and emotionally exhausting.  I’m just not sure I want that anymore.  And yet, I’m not sure what I want to pursue and have been thinking deeply about what my true passions are and how I could relate them to employment  I’m not there yet, but I think this is just one of life’s never ending struggles.
My sister sent me an article today written by a nurse who had been at many deathbeds and the top 5 regrets she witnessed.

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me

2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

Sometimes I find myself getting caught up in what I should be doing versus what I want to do.  It’s hard to not get wrapped up in the mainstream ideals of happiness even though they are not usually in line with what I want.
The one that really speaks to me right now is number 5.  It really is a choice to be happy and I don’t want to look back on these years with regret that I was stressed rather than enjoying my freedom.  Even though I’m unemployed I’m not broke (yet).  Even though I don’t have an apartment I’m so lucky to have a support system and connections.  Even though I don’t have work I have the much desired freedom that I’ve always dreamt of.  And so, I will choose happiness and not let this horrendous economy and job outlook effect my mood and happiness.  All my life I day dreamed about being free from school and work and now I am living it, doesn’t it make sense to embrace it?

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2 Responses to Brother, Can You Spare A Dime?

  1. aidan says:

    this is my favorite one so far.

  2. Ashley says:

    Hi Peach 😀

    I stumbled across your blog via Daily Vegan & I am so thankful I did! Your photos are wonderful & I love your stories. This post is especially beautiful. I can definitely relate to the struggle to live a life fueled by desire & passion vs. societal “shoulds.” Thanks so much for writing & keep on keepin’ on, girl!

    Peace,
    Ashley

    ontheroadashley.blogspot.com

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